Lyrics

1: It Calls me to the Void

It calls me...

to

the

void.

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2: Missing

Panic ensues

Tears in the eyes of loved ones and friends

As they struggle to find any trace of you

First the posters,  And now all over the news.

If only they knew, oh if only they knew.

With any luck,  they never will.

My sweet darling, ripe for the kill.

Enjoy your last moments of quiet and peace

Before I dismember and dissect with ease

I'll bury your entrails wherever I please

My elation be sated by watching you bleed

Tearing the flesh breaking the bone,

Today you should have never left home.

If your good lord is watching,  I hope you are blessed

The life leaves your eyes, another soul at rest

This is my sick board game that I love to play

stalking each night and tracking each day

Til the pawns in this madness become weakened prey

Only when I am killed will the killings then feign

I act like I'm concerned,  playing my part,

Donate to the family, in the search I take part

The madness with in me knows you’re out of harm

But I get so excited when I hear that alarm..

You will never be found

Pieces of you, missing, scattered in the ground.

This song is about a serial killer. Watching a TON of murder investigations on Youtube, and always wanting to write a song from the perspective of a character I could create separate from me was the inspiration for this song. Also, the Song Matriarch by The Black Dahlia Murder, (RIP Trevor) was a huge inspiration as well as Trevor. This, in a way, is a homage to him. Plus, who hasn't thought about taking someone out before?

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3: Amount to Nothing ft Zach Campbell

All this time I've been chasing an unattainable dream

I realize now I will always amount to nothing

Cursed at birth, to be forgotten in death

not much left when were 6 feet deep

no creator to meet

no rebirth and some pearly gates.

Just family visits to your grave

In time your legend dies

Nothing to remember you by

Such is our condition

We strive to be the best we can be

in a world where money rules

and the poor die in droves at their feet.

Unless something changes

We will all always amount to nothing.

"Amount to nothing is about that feeling you get between the daily routine of life and the way of the world. That feeling that the part you play in the world is small, meaningless, and will ultimately be forgotten. 'No rebirth and some pearly gates, just family visits to your grave. In time your legend dies' signifies this thought. After you die, people will come to visit you but eventually, even that will cease. Two generations past, you will not even be a memory.

The latter half of the song is more focused on the current state of humanity and civilization. So many people out there have great ideas or theories or other great things to contribute to society but are drowned out by the voices of the powerful, rich, and entitled. 'Unless something changes, we will always amount to nothing' is the final line and it basically sums up how I feel in general. We, the people of the modern world, the people in the middle all across the world, need a change. For the better."

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4: Remembrance ft. Brittany Gee

I struggle with words,

not sure what to say

My heart still remembers

And though the pain fades

It's hard to look forward

When you're in the past

Feelings fade into the dark

And every time I try to start..

The sadness pierces with every word off my tongue

A dagger through this already broken heart.

You had so much left to achieve.

So much left to prove.

Lives left to change with everything you do.

The passion you held like a burning blaze

And as these embers fall

Ignite the memory of you in our veins

The love we have for you will never fade We will carry your legacy through all our days

But the hardest part is knowing that

Now I have to remember you for longer than I've known you.

God damn.

I never thought I'd have to see you there lifeless in that casket

wake up, please wake up.

Hopelessly lost

how do we move on?

With a dawn becoming a new day

We will push on in your honor

Never let your legacy die

I hope when we finally meet

We can make new and better memories

And never feel the sting of loss again

The love we have for you will never fade

We will carry your legacy through all our days

But the hardest part is knowing that

Now I have to remember you for longer than I've known you.

The love we have for you will never fade (I have to)

We will carry your legacy through all our days (remember you)

But the hardest part is knowing that (for longer than..)

Now I have to remember you Longer than I've known you (now I have to remember you longer than I’ve known you)

I have to remember you, Longer than I’ve known you…

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This song is Dedicated to two dear friends I lost, Ryan Zendarski and Dennis Gee Jr. His sister does the clean vocals on this song. I miss them every day. But this song is for anyone who has ever lost someone close to them.

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5: Hit The Floor (Linkin Park Cover)
You don't need these lyrics.

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6: Never
To create life, just to watch it slip from your hands
Not through death, but through the hands of your fellow man
A twisted curse brought on by the seductive power of greed
I didn't deserve this wretched fate
Wishing things were different, wishing things were great
But you knew exactly from the start what it would take
To break me down, leaving me lost and weak
I will never forgive you, for all the things you've done
Let this be a reminder, as if you needed one
I hate all that you are, and one day she will too
When she learns all that you put her father through
You lied through your teeth (trying to be the victim)
A brainwashing machine (how fucking dare you)
When will you see? (when it's too late)
That all you've done is create a gap between
A dad and his child that never should have fucking been there
Instilled in her problems no child at her age should even fucking have
Was it all worth it just to keep her the fuck away from me
And ruining her bright mind for years to come
I will never forgive you, for all the things you've done
Let this be a reminder, as if you needed one
I hate all that you are, and one day she will too
When she learns all that you put her father through
We will never forgive you. NEVER.

This song is very personal to me. I won’t go into particulars, as the song speaks for itself.

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7: Dying From Eternal Life ft Taylor Barber

Spare me your fallacy, after the grave there is nothing left.
Put pen to parchment creating humanity's biggest lie
So scribed in such a way as to easily control the mind
Our race has surpassed the need for a fruitless fairy tale
We're own our on now your worthless god has abandoned his throne
If I could reach to the heavens
I would pull him down
And drain all of his sacred blood
On the book you hold so dear
Written in exiled depravity
Casting all reason and logic aside
Creating a false security as
We are dying from Eternal Life
Blood of Christ
On my
Hands, this is
Murder
(Taylor – Guest Vocals)
Written in exiled depravity
Casting all reason and logic aside
Creating a false security as
We are dying from Eternal Life
I'll drag your fucking god down with me to hell.

This song is about religion and the bible. It pains me to see that so many people are, in my eyes, blinded by this “thing” we call faith. We need to, as a people, realize we are in control of our own destiny and stop praying to something that was invented as a control tactic.

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8: My Demons and I
How do you go through life where you’re infected with a curse

That turns all your actions and thoughts towards the worst

A concord of misery, a demonic cacophony,

A choir of voices risen from the dead

They speak in tongues

But tell me I'm the one

To perform the evil deeds

Hidden inside

I've struggled all my life

To suppress them in my mind

No longer can they hide

It's about time that

My demons and I, bring hell on the world

A tortured soul who’s sanity has been hurled

Straight into the fires of hell,

there is no return

We will watch this whole fucking world burn

They speak of murder and such inexplicable things,

It’s a wonder I’ve been able to quell them this long

But as each day passes I fear I fall farther into their grasp

Who will save me when I lose my fucking mind

(Will I save me before they take control?

Or will I bring pain and death to all I know?)

They spoke in tongues

And now the deed is done

The blood spilled on the ground is not my own

ad mortem

qui stabit coram mihi

indignus populus

parare planetae terrae

My demons and I, bring hell on the world

A tortured soul who’s sanity has been hurled

Straight into the fires of hell,

there is no return

We will watch this whole fucking world burn

Yeah this while fucking world will burn

 At the hands I call my own

I can not escape my fate

It is time to be afraid

Of my demons and I

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This song is about fighting the demons in your head, and losing, or feeling like you're losing.

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9: My End

Drain the blood from my wrists

or maybe from a hole in my head

I can't stand the constant thoughts of never being good enough

or wishing I was fucking dead

My soul aches from the burdening weight of my flesh

Maybe this entire bottle of pills will give my mind a rest

There's no salvation in sight.

There's a monster in my head, bringing unto me permanent night

A plague that sows it’s poison deep my mind starts to unmend

With each breath I take I’m drawn closer to my end

Looking back to all the days

I thought i could be saved

What a fallacy

The truth is (I am not worth saving}

A tired soul (who’s lost his craving)

let the earth (drink all of my blood)

and forget this wasted flesh

There's no salvation in sight

There's a monster in my head bringing unto me permanent night

May these last few moments of respite bring solace to my friends

I embrace the fact I am nothing and welcome in my end.

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I welcome in my end.

I never asked for all this.

I was never given a choice.

Pain and suffering is the only constant in this journey to pretend

that we are all smiling and happy to be

When the darkness comes

the truth sinks in,

we are all alone

I've found that in giving up my life

I've found my perfect home.

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This song is about the feelings of suicide. I have struggled my entire life with these thoughts, and I want people everywhere to know, you are not the only person in the world having these thoughts. I have made it out, and here I am writing a song to you to let you know you are not alone. You will make it out too.